An Idiot's Dream

IDIOT’S DREAM Verse 1 And the stars they gazed, Using the pale moonlight To expose all your beauty Under the August night. And the river, it edged, Breaching against your shores. As you came you consumed me, Drowning me in your arms— In an idiot’s dream. Pre-Chorus Far away from me now, Where the hurts not allowed— Where have you gone? Chorus We fall, but we keep getting up, Becoming those things that we thought we would not. Where laughter is all so disturbing, hurt is revealing— Without you I’m certain I’m here so time can pass through. Verse 2 You’re a part of me. You’re the breath I breathe. You’re the voice inside my head, Disturbing my memories. When you looked at me, Through those Asian eyes, Tell me what did you see? Was it the innocence, or an idiot’s dream? Pre-Chorus Far away from me now, Where the hurts not allowed— Where have you gone? Chorus We fall, but we keep getting up, Becoming those things that we thought we would not. Where laughter is all so disturbing, hurt is revealing— Without you I’m certain I’m here so time can pass through. Outro Far away from it all— it never really goes. How we are, we’ll never know. We’re taken for the toll. Where you are, where we were, Time has finally shown: Time is on its own.

Verse 1 Now, I was always compromised, Dissolving in your eyes, Conquered as I tried your truth. I knew— The color of my sins Ran deeper than you’ve been, And still, you drew me into you. Chorus Can you feel the tragic, Compromise the madness, Staring through you? Can you taste the tragic, On the lips of madness, Naked, confused? As I waste my sins on you— I do. Verse 2 Now I’ve stumbled through your light, Fractured by your eyes, Couldn’t make it right for you. Cruel— The color of these sins Stains beneath the skin, Never fades until we’re through. Chorus Can you feel the tragic, Compromise the madness, Fading through you? Can you taste the tragic, Kiss the lips of madness, Breaking in two? Outro As I waste my sins on you, And I lay them bare for you, As the tragic comes in view— I do.

Verses: There’s a constellation racing through your eyes Where chaos finds you, and the darkness lies In a busted vision, rusting at the edge I found the night inside you, where our souls were bled Chorus: The culling of the storm (constellation) The breaking of the bones (racing) Waits until Verse: From your lips the moonlight, vanishing within We were lost forever, forever we descend Chorus: The culling of the storm (constellation) The breaking of the bones (racing) Waits until Bridge: When your soul (when your soul) leaves you cold (leaves you cold) All I want is goodnight (all I want is goodnight) And those dreams (and those dreams), how they scream (how they scream) Through this long-lost goodnight (through this long-lost goodnight) Goodnight (goodnight) Outro: The culling of the storm (constellation) The breaking of the bones (racing) The thunder in your head (constellation) The restlessness descends (racing) The lightning in your eyes (constellation) The constellation blinds (racing through) Just until.

Verse 1 There’s sunlight in the shadow, Where you carved yourself a halo. It shimmers through the dust and light, And crowns your fall of wanton might. Chorus Where supermen fly high, And broken men collide, Shattering pieces of their lives— Still waiting for the sun to open up the sky, And shine upon your life. Shine— Verse 2 There’s someone in the battle, Who broke you just to see you shatter. They are the ghosts that you excite; We are wolves in sheep-filled lives. Chorus Where supermen fly high, And broken men collide, Shattering pieces of their lives— Still waiting for the sun to open up the sky, And shine upon your life. Shine— Outro When I saw my soul escape The madness of the life we made, I took the poison from your eyes And watched the fate I’d long devised Collapse into the void we are— A trickle of the blood-red stars. I held the life I broke that day, Watched the scars fall all away— A superman that couldn’t save, Collapsing stars into mistakes. And if you saw what I once saw Through glass and steel and all these walls— Shine—

Verse 1 Oh, precious boy, Who did your joy? Who cut your tongue, Made you feel so numb? Oh, reckless void, What did this boy? Complicated child, Compromising smile. Chorus When the morning fills your head, Restless sunlight on your bed. Doesn’t feel so good inside, When you’re woke and stupefied. Verse 2 Oh, gentle boy, Gently destroyed. Catatonic eyes, Fractured from inside. Oh, what becomes— Sensitive and numb. Shattered boys don’t mend Turn into broken men. Chorus / Refrain When the morning fills your head, Restless sunlight on your bed. Doesn’t feel so good inside, When you’re woke and stupefied. When you’re woke and stupefied. When you’re woke and stupefied. When you’re woke and stupefied.

Verse 1 I’m building a fire, I’m chopping the wood. The fire feels cold Next to your soul— You know that I should. I’m swallowing down. Chorus 1 From these thoughts, I start to drown. Verse 2 I’m smelling the flowers, It’s starting to rain. It’s not in the clouds— Smells off and loud, And howls in shame. I called out your name. Chorus 2 When there was no one Left to blame. Bridge Got so much pressed inside, The pain is real, It reels in tight. Swallowing what I’ve become, Swallowing until I’m numb. Life’s a knife, big and wide, Cuts a hole, the whole inside. Swallowing what I’ve become, Swallowing until I’m numb. Final Verse I’m watching the fire, Swirling in flames. The fire absolves, Ashes dissolve, Smoke to the flame. I call out your name. Final Chorus When there is nothing, But ash and flames. Outro I-I-I— Would have loved— Love, love, to let you go.

Verse 1 I see it now — Our past is present. Without a sound, It makes its presence. I see in you, The things I wanted; Those things I’d do — My thoughts are haunted. Verse 2 It stares at you — Through cracks and fissures, Through what you choose, Through all your fingers. I feel for you — Our past is present, Unearthing truth With all its vengeance. Bridge When I was a child, I put the poison in my mouth. As I began to swallow, The taste of blood Just filled my mouth. Chorus (3×) And it’s you Who raises the oceans, And it’s you Who crashes the seas. Then it’s you, Who can still, Life’s water, Drowning the soul Damned in me.

Verse 1 Listen to me, See right through me, And you’ll know the ghost I am. Tell me something— When we’re something, Will this feeling ever end? Chorus I don’t want to lose myself again, In a place I’ve always been. I don’t want to choose myself instead— I’m just throwing myself away. Verse 2 Show me somewhere, Far from nowhere, As we fade into within. From this distance We are haunted by the Ghosts beneath our skin Chorus I don’t want to lose myself again, In a place I’ve always been. I don’t want to choose this life instead— I’m just throwing myself away. I’m just throwing myself away. Bridge Listen—the truth in me Vanishes into the breeze, Wander into the night we are. You were my alibi, Witness to all my crimes, A savior who never believed. Outro Verse Tell me something— When we’re something, Will this feeling ever end?

Verse 1 Suddenly, You’re counting change. What I know now — is I know now. You’re not too soon, You’re just too late, To be holding on, To be going on. Chorus In this world — Can’t explain. Can’t exchange. What to some Is insane — Was my whole life, Is my whole life, For a change. Verse 2 You’re reaching for What you once gave out. Are you lost when found, Careful as you drown? Just one kiss From those poison lips, As you hold yourself From your very self. Chorus In this world — Can’t explain. Can’t exchange. What to some Is insane — Was my whole life, Is my whole life, For a change.